new posts

Ive decided to make new posts on facebook.
I dont want to disseminate my childrens photos on blogger since they are already on facebook.
And there is some level of privacy control on facebook although my acct has been hacked from chicago by someone.
Its sad someone has to make aliving hacking.
I could go on about Ava Maggie turning into a giant dora looking chinese girl with chubby legs
and her laughing and telling my simpsons shirt was - sing song
sing song!
and my mother trying to get her to say lau lau- and my baby pointing to herself and saying lau lau which is hysterical since lau lau means grandmother in Mandarin.
And michael who thought we were in the 11th century
and when we took a bus from south street seaport to Chinatown thought we were in Flushing.
Oh were in Flushing. I said why?
He said oh there are projects here.
There are projects everywhere Michael!
I think Michael has maybe been living a sheltered life. Then again, I did until college.

By the way, we have discovered if Maggie offers you a food, you had better take it. Last chance before she flings it to the floor on the right.
She so funny my fat baby
I like to sit on the couch and hold her
and feel the years fall off me
feel blessed I can take care of these two angels
my loaf of bread my mian bao
and my bitter melon fu gua
your mommy loves you
and wishes the best for you
but its a scary world out there
be careful.

Im trying to stop play video games. I can spend years there on vindictus leveling up my evie but its too time consuming.
I want to spend years doing what I should be doing which is taking care of these two.
Which makes me feel bad about working.
But if I stop who will pay the bills?

I am also unsure about my decisions in future MBA/MHA/MPH/fellowship
Its so confusing.
I know Im not administrative- I cant learn administration. I cant delegate well I like to do everything myself.
I dont know if I can learn business, writing or art.
Or to make jewelry.
I need some direction!
What it is is I am spending time reading the tibetan book of the dead in english and the sense of urgency to live your life to the fullest is pervasive.
Its a wonderful book about death and about life.
I feel like I am wasting my time playing videogames and I dont want to do that.
Life is too short.